'all you do to me is talk talk...'

fyi- yeah okay so i didn't take this pic...hehe but it seemed relative.

Somewhere in this existance there is a 'grand scheme' to things. This is something I've been told many times throughout my life. Mostly it comes in the form of 'there is a reason for everything that happens'. There are lots of times that I believe that and some times that I'm just not sure. There's a person I know that has told me that sometimes things happen to us and only God gets the joke. That's an interesting perception. There's also a Roger Waters song I believe is called 'what God wants pt 1'. I haven't listened to that particular CD in a long time. I don't remember hardly any of the lyrics but if anyone has listened to Water's era Pink Floyd or any of his solo works, then you can guess how that song goes.
I guess my wife summed it up over the weekend. We were talking about how things have been going so 'whacky' -for lack of a better term- with this wait and I flat out asked her how she was dealing with it. She isn't as out-spoken as I am...in fact she's relatively quiet about most things. I ended up just asking her what she truly thought of this situation and how she was dealing with it. I for one have been up and down and on that emotional rollercoaster---and I Hate! rollercoasters. :) I've been more 'open' about how I feel about things and what my thoughts and opinions are. She is not like that. So...she says something to the effect of "yeah I think this sucks and it is frustrating but I just figure that there are some things you have control of in life and some things you don't. And, this happens to be one of those things we don't have control over so I'm just going with whatever happens. "
After talking some more I just figured she's right. She seems so calm about everything and I envy her that. I know how I feel about everything and how bad I want to be a dad...how bad I want to go get my daughter and some time after another year or so go get another little baby girl. I also am able to keep somewhat calm about everything even with the occasional ramblings and oratories I get on with. But she is right. We figured based on the current situation and simple math that we could possibly get a referral still in August...and the worst case would probably be December. Or...somewhere in between I suppose. Guess we just have to ride out the wait and see what happens and when.

there is a reason for everything that happens, right?